I read this article and, in light of my recent searching, it seemed to click. What do you do when the grass is not greener? That's what I'm muddling my way through. It's funny because in relationships and friendships, I've had the tendency to hang on way too long. Yet in my jobs, if I get fed up, I find something else and leave. Cut and dry: cut and run. In a romance, I'll hang around to the bitter end despite all signs that scream "Abort mission!" Or I suppose I should say that's how I used to be. The reality is that once you push past the fear and realize that it's really OK to stand on your own two feet and live one day at a time without some master plan outlining every little thing, you get liberated. I was talking to a friend today who is very, very independent. She's married but values her alone time. I told her, "If I want to go see a movie and no one else does, I just get up and go. I don't let the circumstances stop me and I'm finding that my life operates a helluva lot better." I enjoy the time I spend with my friend, Jon, because we're on the same wavelength about stuff we like to do. I enjoy time with my friend, P, because she is also an introvert and doesn't like a lot of theatrics, drama, or foolishness. But there are some people where it's like . . . F*ck. I'd rather actually be alone than roll with them. I know that sounds bad but it's true. Like the flakes who play sick or the dude who is rabidly surfing the net for a girlfriend. Blah. I don't want to deal with that. I guess it's like an alcoholic who doesn't want to hang out in bars or go to places where they used to get plastered. I don't want to be around someone who places his sole value in life on whether he's in a relationship. I got suckered into that mentality for a while and I suffered greatly for it. Ergo, I don't wanna go back!
What I'm finding in this job situation is that no, the grass is not greener in other pastures. At least not in the particular industry I'm in. Since I have never been in a sales job before, I didn't have anything else to compare this to. Yes, there are things that annoy the piss out of me. But in the day-to-day mechanics of the job, there are other places where the job duties are crappy. And that is NOT what I am looking for. As the Police lyric says, "When the world is running down, you make the best of what's still around." Right now, that's my best strategy. My situation is not perfect but now that I have been able to comparison shop, I see that it's better than the current alternatives. And that's OK.
