Yikes.
http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/tv-column/post/simon-cowells-x-factor-opens-to-smallest-crowd-yet-early-stats-say/2012/09/13/7defd390-fdc5-11e1-8adc-499661afe377_blog.html
Frankly, the singers aren't great. Simon either needs to go back to the drawing board and come up with something totally different (no talent shows, no singing competitions) or invest wisely and retire. Do something else for a living or go back to A&R behind the scenes. The formula is old. We've seen it. The singers are not good anymore and it's like going to see a famous singer about 20 years past their prime. Yeah, mildly enjoyable, but more depressing than fun. Isn't it about time to settle down with a wife already? Just sayin.
I finished the rabbi’s book last night and I have to say wow. One of the best books I have ever read. It made so much sense to me. And it was brought to my attention at precisely the right time for me to read it. (There was a funny story about two people who got married later in life and had a 21 year age gap. Someone can feel free to photocopy that and mail it to Cowell Manor in Beverly Hills. LOL) I was ready to hear what needed to be said. Having a better grasp on how to approach dating has alleviated so much of my anxiety. I really can’t fully express it. After I finished the book, I spent some time last night and this morning thinking about things. There’s no reason for me to treat Arsey Darcy like my committed boyfriend when he isn’t. I may wish he was and want him to be, but none of that makes it so. We’re dating but we aren’t exclusive. Which means part of my effort in this whole gig can involve seeing other people. Frankly, I think it should. I think that would be a healthier approach than twisting my guts in a knot. We had a discussion last Thursday and I told him where I was at. He wasn’t mean to me or rude about it but he essentially said he wasn’t at the same speed as me and needed more time. To be honest, I’m a little skeptical of that. It seems to be in his nature though to analyze the hell out of everything and make decisions like a tortoise. That I have seen in situations independent of me. So I’m sure that’s his true tendency. But I gots ta do me. As Fabolous says, “Better do you ‘cause I damn sure does me.” I need to get back to that mentality. I’m evaluating Darcy and trying to see if he’s a good person and if this feels right. In my heart of hearts, I’d have to say I don’t know yet and I’m hesitant. There are a lot of things I like about him and there are things he’s done for me that no one else I’ve ever dated has. That’s wicked cool. Wicked cool may mean “this is going fine so far” but it may not mean “we’re destined to be.” The rabbi talks about evaluating whether something feels natural. I enjoy spending time with him when we do, but I would not say our communication and sync level are matched yet. Remember my post about platonic soulmates and that baseline of understanding? He and I don’t have that. We might have more of a baseline after spending time together and getting to know one another. I don’t want to say that a bond like that cannot be developed and nurtured over time because it can. But it’s definitely not like DJT where he speaks and I automatically get everything he’s saying on a natural, intuitive level. That sort of thing doesn’t happen often in a lifetime. When it does, you treasure it. (Which is why I get so ass-over-tea-kettles mad when people rip on Trumpula.)
In other news, looking forward to spending time soon with my friend, Kevin. I know we’ll have a great time. Not many men would agree to be Blind Blake Carrington to my Alexis Carrington. That too is pretty special!
