Saturday, June 20, 2009

Is it amnesty, clemency or a pardon?

Based on this definition from the legal dictionary:

Clemency is considered to be an act of grace. It is based on the policy of fairness, justice, and forgiveness. It is not a right but rather a privilege, and one who is granted clemency does not have the crime forgotten, as in Amnesty, but is forgiven and treated more leniently for the criminal acts.

I think clemency might be the right word. I wish amnesty was insofar as it would be nice to erase the shitty things that happens to all of us in life. We all get to experience the wheel of shit from time to time and it sucks. I feel like I have reached a place in my life lately where it is time for me to start letting a lot of things go-- releasing certain things and certain people into the universe because enough time and enough recompense have passed to make me feel like it's appropriate. I don't know that any of us ever forgets having a heart broken, being abandoned by a friend, being left crying on the street, being maligned and mistreated by someone you love, etc. But the day comes eventually when you wake up and say, "Why am I hanging on to this? What purpose does it serve to me to keep a candle burning over this?" It is not about the people who have shit on me at various times, it's about me doing what I feel is best for myself. Fuck the other people! Quite frankly, the universe has punished them far greater than I ever could have anyway. The fallout that has occurred in the lives of some of these people is beyond belief-- some of them are even jailbirds now, which blows my mind. Anyone who thinks there is no possible way that karma exists should take heed. I could tell some very convincing stories.

I like the part in the above definition that it is not a right, it is a privilege. Touche. There are people in life who will never give you an apology for shitting on you. They don't care and never will care. So why waste your own time wishing them un-well? The karmic wheel will do that for you. I wish I could detail specific examples about specific people in this blog but, for obvious reasons, I cannot. You will just have to take my word for it that their misdeeds caught up with them and they are now living unhappy lives for a myriad of reasons, all of their own making.

The point I am coming to is that I am having this general wave of clemency. There are people I will never like, I will never be friends with and that I pretty much never want to see again in my life. They are not good people and, in the time that we have been separated, they have continued to crap on others the way they crapped on me. It's not my problem anymore. I don't care about them and they are so irrelevant to anything that's going on currently in my life that I just don't give a fuck about them. They are free to go off into the universe and spread whatever misery they possess to someone else (and I am sure, sadly, that they will) because I am not interested. It feels very good to get to this place.